I SEE A GIRL

I see a girl who is afraid of what she has become
A girl who feels, in this life, she has not won
I see a girl starving for attention
A girl reflecting desperation
Reaching to find love
Covering her body with a glove
I see a girl hiding behind a newfound mask
A girl feeling overwhelmed in every task
I see a girl who questions, will me, he save
A girl who is overcome by the crashing wave
I see a girl who needs to be rescued
From the life she has turned to, instead of the one she has valued
A girl who, to others, she has portrayed
The person she thought she left behind
I see a girl who, within herself, she has betrayed
The power, love and wealth that was given her, along with all man kind
I see a girl who is longing to be loved
A girl who is longing to be filled
I see a girl who reaches out
A girl who has some doubt
With the walk she finds herself on in this life
I see a girl who feels pain…who feels strife
I see a girl who searches to find what she must seek
A girl who finds herself getting weak
I see a girl who has strayed
A girl who, by the enemy, has been played
I see a girl who once was me
A girl who I no longer wish to be
I see a girl who I was in the past
A girl who will no longer last
I see a girl and that girl is me
Yet I long for the girl I strive to be
I see a girl that was sent from above
I see a girl that God does love.

By: Jana Loser (Adams)…May 17, 2004

IN TIMES OF NEED

 

I will pray for you in your time on need

Just know that in this time of sorrow

God has sown a new seed

God is with you today and always tomorrow

Know that even with your heart ever so sore

God has opened many of doors

And what has come to past

Will forever in your heart last

And know that with your lonely cries

The love you have will never die

And in times of despair

Know that he is always there

He will be watching over you every minute of every day

He will be watching your very step in every way

In heart and soul he will be there for you everyday

And know that God has for you many plans

And will forever me holding your fragile hands

Know that the love your father had for you

Will never die and live forever within you

In your heart he will live forever

And his memory will fade never

He is and always will care

He is and always will be there

He is watching over you

He is watching over you

 

By:  Jana Adams…May 22, 2008

 

GRADUATION…NEW BEGINNING

 

In this time which is a new beginning

It is a time for winning and not losing

It is a time to take everything

And make it forever lasting

Remember your friends

For they will always be your friends

Remember all the good times

Remember all the bad times

For these consume your life

These will shape your upcoming life

You may say to yourself “I don’t want anything to be different”

“I don’t want to take anything for granted”

Thus leaving you with one more thing wanted

You may wish that you had done some things different

Yet if you had, your whole life today would be different

And so with these turning of events that lay in your hands

Take all of your friends by the hand

Look them in the eye

And never say goodbye

For a time of graduation

Is a time of celebration

So remember your friends

For they will always be your friends

Tackle the world together

For you will always be one, united together

Take this time of celebration and make the most of it

For graduation, shared with family and friends

Is one of life’s most precious gifts

It is a new beginning and not an end

It is life staring you in the face

A life full of grace

So remember your friends

For they will always be your friends

Take this graduation

And make it one of your biggest celebrations

For today you are graduating

Today you are starting a new beginning

 

By: Jana Adams…May 20, 2008

 

IN AWE OF YOU

 

I am taken by you

In awe of you

Consumed by your every word

Taken by your wonderful voice

And the conversations that we hold

Bring joy to my life and I feel peace

For when we speak I am gripped with tranquility

And I can feel you gentle touch laid upon me

And the likeness of your face

Puts me in a comfortable place

For when I look at you

I see a beautiful man I like, of whom

You see me in a way no one ever has

And now alas

I have someone who looks to the inner me

Someone who truly does see

I am taken by you

In awe of you

For when I need you

When I need it the most

You become a wonderful host

Of whom listens and lends an ear

One who is far, yet is very near

This, in your kindness, is what you do

There for me in a blink of an eye

Just as the stars sparkle in the night sky

I am taken by you

In awe of you

For you are one of whom truly listens

When I need it the most, a deep conversation

I am taken by you

I am in awe of you

 

By: Jana Adams…November 9, 2007

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

MOVE ON

 

I want to move on

Turn night into dawn

I want to move on

Create a new chapter; a new song

For the days have become night

And the nights become a new fight

The endeavors that have been endured

Seem not to have been cured

And long, long is it overdue

For a fresh, to start anew

I want to move on

Turn night into dawn

Yet the restrictions placed upon my heart

Hinder me from a new start

SO I ASK…

What is a new beginning?

What is a complete end?

And what is the fine line that divides the two?

For in this world of inner planetary movement

In the middle of the swirling and spinning

The losing and the winning

What is our true placement?

And even though the sun shines

As the stars shine

Slowly they begin to faintly fade

Until one day they are just a mere shade

SO I ASK…

What is our place?

Will we make the final race?

For I do want to move on

Turn night into dawn

Yet the restrictions placed upon my heart

Hinder me from a new start

Yet I want to move on

I want to move on.

 

By: Jana Adams…October 24, 2007

 

 

TWO THOUSAND AND SEVEN

 

What I learned in two thousand and seven

Is that every day is a new chance to start again

There is always a chance for a new beginning

Every time the morning birds are singing

And what I learned is that some things may come easy

While the others may come hard

And while some things can be fixed with a card

Others don't repair that easy

Yet if you take each day with a fresh step

Make it a point to create that new start

Then each day you will be able to recollect

The pieces of your heart.

Each day you will walk each foot one further

While the rough edges become slowly smoother

And I have learned that if you look someone in the eye

No longer will you be withdrawn

No longer will you be shy

Yet seek each day for the new dawn

And as courage you find

Press, always, to be kind.

What I learned in two thousand and seven

Is that you need not strive to get even

Love as you wish to be loved

And pull near everyone

Give not to any, a shove

Love and forgive

Give yourself the chance to truly live

Hold not onto grudges

And give not any nudges

For what I have learned in two thousand and seven

Is that every day is a new chance to start again

There is always a chance for a new beginning

Every time the morning birds are singing

 

 

 

YOU ARE THE REASON

 

You are the reason why I wake in the morning

The reason why I had my beginning

Knowing I have you by my side

No longer do I have to hide

For when I look into your eyes

I see not my wonderful disguise

I see a reflection not seen before

Yet a reflection I want day to day more

You are the reason why I take my breath each day

The reason why I find more to say

With you I am able to get through

Any and everything I must go through

You give me hope each day

Hope in more than one way

With you by my side

You are the reason why

I no longer have to hide my cry

For with you I have the much needed shoulder

To lean my head upon in times of pain

When the clouds have dried up all rain

You are my shoulder

You are the reason why

I no longer cry my painful tears

The reason why

I have been able to put behind my painful years

You are the reason why I wake in the morning

You are the reason why I am no longer mourning

You are my sunshine when I need it the most

You are the reason why

I no longer cry

You are the reason why

CHRISTMAS WISHES

 

HEY EVERYONE I JUST WANTED TO WISH EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS. I ALSO WANTED TO LET YOU HOW GREAT GOD IS. ALL OF OUR CHRISTMAS WISHES CAM TRUE THIS YEAR. MY HUSBAND AND I WERE STRUGGLING TO GIVE OUR KIDS A GREAT CHRISTMAS AND (AS ALWAYS) GOD CAME THROUGH. OUR KIDS WERE SINGED UP AT AN ORGANIZATION AND WHEN WE GOT THE GIFTS FOR THEM THERE WAS A CARD WITH THE GIFTS FROM THE WOMAN WHO GRABBED THEIR NAMES. INSIDE THE CARD WAS A LETTER THAT SHE WROTE TO US.

THE LETTER SAID THAT SHE WAS GRATEFUL THAT SHE WAS ABLE TO BUY FOR KIDS….SHE THANKED US FOR ALLOWING HER TO BUY FOR OUR KIDS. I WAS SO TOUCHED BY THIS LETTER BECAUSE SHE TOLD ME THAT HER SON DIED IN A CAR ACCIDENT TWO YEARS AGO ON CHRISTMAS AND LAST YEAR SHE WAS NOT ABLE TO GET OUT OF BED. AND THIS YEAR WHEN SHE SAW OUR NAMES ON THE ANGLE TREE SHE CHOSE OUR NAMES AND THAT SHE WAS BLESSED  AND HONORED THAT WE ALLOWED HER AND GAVE HER THE OPPORTUNITY TO BUY FOR OUR KIDS…I WAS SO TOUCHED THAT I STARTED CRYING. I RECEIVED HER EMAIL IN THE LETTER BECAUSE SHE ASKED THAT I SEND HER PICTURES OF THE KIDS OPENING UP THE GIFTS. I WILL BE SENDING THEM TODAY.

IN ADDITION TO THAT…I MY KIDS WERE SIGNED UP AT THEIR SCHOOL AND RECEIVED A LOT OF GIFTS. WE HAVE BEEN SO BLESSED BY GOD AND MY KIDS HAD SUCH A MERRY CHRISTMAS. I WANT TO WISH ALL OF MY READERS A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND LET YOU ALL KNOW THAT CHRISTMAS WISHES REALLY DO COME TRUE. MY KIDS HAVE BEEN PRETENDING THAT THEY HAVE A BAND FOR THE LONGEST TIME AND TODAY THEY GOT THEIR INSTRUMENTS TO START THEIR BAND.  MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.

good morning all. And to all of you out there who have a birthday today, I wish you a happy one. Today is my birthday. In one way I feel old and in another way I feel like a kid...I guess for some or most of us we will always have that kid thing hanging around inside of us.

I remember when I was a kid though, I would sit and wait around for days even weeks just waiting for the day. I would be so excited the night before because that meant I had some special attention that day...i am pretty sure that all of us felt that way. I can't say that I did not feel that yesterday...knowing that today is my birthday.

Now my husband and I don't have any money to do anything or for him to get me anything, but I guess that is one thing that you grow not to care so much about as you get older. As a child you are wondering what you are going to get for your birthday, and as you grow older...yeah you still wonder if and what you may be getting...but when you know that there is no way that you could get or receive anything, it does not bother you as much...well not me anyway.

I guess the reason why it does not bother me so much is because the most important thing for me is that I spend my birthday with my family. You know I have 4 children and 3 of them are in school...this morning they woke me up to a birthday song and home made birthday cards....that to me, means the world. that was the most wonderful birthday present I could ever get.

So I will be signing off now, I just wanted to take time out and wish all of you a happy birthday, and for those who do not have a birthday today...I wish you a happy birthday in advance or in cases where I have missed your birthday then I wish you a be-lated birthday.

JL Adams signing off.